If I Die Young

Borrowing Band Perry's hit song title for this entry.

Few days before, the entire world was losing a very young passionate and potential legend-in-made, Marco Simoncelli at the age of 24. Shocking yet true, it's happened on a live show while the audiences cheer for their favourite one. For those doesn't have ideas who Simoncelli really is, I guess now you guys knew him.

I was in the office during this incident. Working as normal, I noticed there's a motor race (MotoGP) broadcasting live on tv. Since I'm not really into this racing thing, I didn't paying attention when someone (who following the race since beginning) shouting loud, mentionting that crashed happened! A bad one! So, all of us running through the screen to get the clear picture.

Unsatisfied, after having a tea break, I began to search if the scene already posted on YouTube. Well, it was there. What a fate, to tell, his girlfriend also there witnessing the moment. I watched it few times and can't imagined how he doing there. Minutes before, my timeline in Twitter flooded by the RIP wishes regarding him. And it touched my heart. Why? He just started to build a lap to become a legend, and his life's taken? I supposed God loves him more.

Life is short, so I guess we should put aside exception to have fun. We never knew when our time will comes. And we never knows, there must be uncountable amazing things out there. So, live life to the fullest.

Instead of inserting the crashed scene herewith this entry, I would like you to remember him as a charming handsome, passionate guy, with an amazing ambition of takeover the lap as a true champion.

RIP MARCO SIMONCELLI

23rd October 2011

May your beautiful soul rest in peace.



I'm Back For More

Damn. It's been a really long time not writing here. I suppose I cannot be forgiven for that. So sorry followers. Having two blogs definitely not an easy task to manage.

Where should I start, working lately had been my priority above all. I went through a very tough times dealing with pressure in and outside the workplace. Well, if only I can tell details about it, but I decided to just keep it as private. Better to not talk about it. :)

So many things happened since then, this including the process of shipment of my car from KK to KL. I thought it's gonna be that not very complicated but I'm wrong. Regardless the documents and the quite big amount of payment, I was pissed off by the unorganizable way the agent settling this thingy. She's troubled me alots. And because of her, I troubled some of my very close persons. Thanks God, they understood me.

Life's also being lame recently. Socially, I'm getting less friend to hang out. Most often, I'll spend my time reading, practising songs, and talking alone at home. I just don't have any ideas why it is so hard to get out in fact I got my car here. But, I should blame the roads. Jammed is everywhere and I cannot even avoid any of it.

My internet connection also been cut-off and this adding my boredomness into high level. As a results, it pressured me to the max. So I decided, on my next wage, I'll go settling the bill to get my connection again coz internet should probably can at least get me out from the 'darkness'.

Actually, I have a lot more to share and talk, but I should stop babbling and reserve it for the next entry. Well, everbody, I'm back on track! :)

The Date Is Approaching

Believe it or not, times ticking fast. The date Feb 26 would be a new step stone to a world of indescribable. A world of secret-sweet-suffer of workinghood. For time being, I'm still ongoing to convince myself that I had made it through to this level. Awesome, proud!

Not intended to sound cocky here, but the longing await finally paid off. Even though there's no black and white to official the designation yet, but I should start to bear in mind now that I promise myself to perform well, think out of the box, and stay extraordinary to whatever circumstances approaching. The job's finally mine. I pray so. I hope so. Why there's 50-50? We(the toplister 25) should undergo a 3 months training at first. It's kinda a curfew for us to prove to the company that it it worth for them taking us in.

Still unclear? Not so soon, I'll be working as a journalist. It's kinda a huge challenge for me coz I'm going to write for a national tabloid. I like writing just I don't really sure which level my capability can shoot. But everything has it's starting lap, right? So, there's no excuses to learn from the bottom instead of topping at first but in the end, crashed down, useless.

Gotta pack my stuffs aka goods not so soon and leaving Sabah not for forever but just for a while. Chasing something I dreamt since back long time ago. Hoping to give my bestest and for sure, achieve 'something'!

TipTop Dreamer xx

LANGUAGE BARRIER?

Ok, first and foremost, LMAO! This entry has nothing to do with the title. Seriously, I'm thinking of switching the writing language to Bahasa Melayu when I'm done with the revamps. What do you think? I guess I would be better writing in Malay than English. Do comment and suggest. Huhuhu.

En Route To Become A Journalist

Hey sweethearts! Miss me? Ah-ha. It's been hectic recently. I've been flying from KK and now I'm in KL, this upcoming Feb 8th, fly back to KK again, and on 26 Feb, I will officially move to KL for I guess, forever? Can't tell you that coz I myself have no plan yet.

On January 12, I've attended an interview for a job that sort of my "dream job". I swear I don't prepared well but thanks God, I managed to make it to the 2nd interview in KL. At first, as per I acknowledged, there will a complimentary tix to fly us for the 2nd interview but unfortunately it's just another rumor which is I finally made a big risky investment for the sake of grabbing the lifetime opportunity!

The day's came, Jan 24, 30 out 200 being interviewed nationwide candidates showed off and apparently, I'm the most nervous among them! Only God knows, how I'm almost giving up upon knowing their strong background on the media industry, it's stiff, I can tell! This may sound cliche, but the only thing I did that time was reciting my pray silently in heart. Task given was presentation by group and individually. Worst part is, we became the first to present and the good part was, at least we done first with the burdens!

Now, I can tell how happy I am, the verdict been so nice to me. I'll be moving to KL coz starting the March 1st, we will undergo a training in route to be a real journalist for the tabloid. Been touching onto this level, I will ensure that nothing will become a barrier for me to nail the 'trial' in fact, I wanna show them that they worth picking me in.

KL, here I come with a big dream. Watchout metro peoples!

Migrate?Moving?

Been few days not making any entry, I wonder if I should go on with this blog anymore. It's been a while and I'm proud to say that there's so many thing I've learnt from the moment I indulge into the blog world. I  kinda a worth-wore blog seeker now, just to scoop useful infos, writing skills, even in order to determine what's the best concept I must use for my future blog project. Honestly, I'm started to think of a fashion blog anyway. Still on progress to collect some materials and guides. Heh.

Life ain't easy when I noted that the past comes around back again. Yeah, being jobless isn't worthy to proud of at all, the main concern is who gonna pay for the loans esp the car! I'm so gonna sink if I couldn't get a job asap! Don't ask, but I already sent my resume to few places, which potential to hire me with such experiences and field of study. Lord, hear my prays, grant me a job. A nice one! Huhu.

Arrogant-zero to speak, I received two calls from two different employers yesterday and today asking me if I could make it to their interview while I'm still frustrated with the not extended ex-job. The matter rose, both required me to based in KL and this does really put me in dilemma since I'm not yet ready to go back to Peninsular admittance I loved being here, my hometown now.

Well, haven't make any decision yet, cause it's just the fourth day of me became jobless, perhaps I should give myself some times and obviously, good rest to think wisely whether which path I should take without regretting it later. There's a call I've been waiting and I put a high end hope to that job to be mine, so there's no such thing to rush considering there still left on saving, fair enough to hold me for bit more periods. Wait, rest, calm and see what's will going on.

Wish me luck guys.

Trapped In Dilemma xx

Best I Ever Had

Initially, I damn lazy to write this entry. But reminiscing throughout the year 2010 makes me want to scar something here to welcome the year of 2011. I'm not sure to say this but 2010 made a really huge impact to my life. Unable to list down the items happened, I rather stamp 2010 a best year I ever had.

Starting with, a jobless got employed! It's like a threshold to a new phase of life to mine cause this is the first steady job came to me. Yes, it's skidded from what I took during at uni, but still, I need a job to pay my expanses. Unfortunately, today I officially became a jobless again. Reason : contract ended. *sigh*

I made myself joining a big singing competition in Sabah which known as KENTE stands for KadazanDusun Entertainment Next Top Entertainer and be one of the finalist 10. No regret, I knew alot of peoples, meet so many friends, experiencing the real scenario of singing competition(there's always hidden hand and or injustice in judgmental) and most of all, the ultimate fun I had harvest.

Toplist thing-to-dos including settling my driving license, to own a car, buy my dream cellphone, and buying a laptop had been accomplished! My life couldn't be better until I owned all this esp the car. Now only I can feel so free and I'm like a bird flying in scatter places. Regardless the fuel, the scratches, I even installed a car-security-protector in case people try to stole it. Arggghh! One plus burden since I have to pay monthly for that silly thing....erk.

Whatelse, oh ya did I ever mentioned about my crashed love story? Hurm... I better mute about it but factually, till this time, nobody can really have idea how my heart terribly wounded when I lost that person. To be honest, I just want to play around, be flirtatious, and getting know this person just for fun, but at the end karma punished me with a hard to say, dump! If only you read this, hope you will get anything you want form the person you are with now. :)

Despite all those emo thingy, I felt blessed to get close again to my family since there's some few issues which I don't feel suitable to reveal here. Previously, I never had time or I rather think so, to come dropping by to my mum's house. But now, my day wouldn't be complete if I'm not going there for at least having my lunch. Can't deny the cliche, mum's cook is the best!

I also start blogging after long time of wanting to do it. I even became a bookworm to strengthen my English since there so much space I need to improve and I still lack of anything. 

See, how's tiger year(which was mine) did and gave big things/improvement into my life. It's not the entire what's happened obviously, but at least I stored them in my head just in case they're useful for the upcoming task. yay!

2011 seems promising although I just in fact lost my job officially by today, but I true believe there's always be a greener side of the field. So I made some resolutions for the year 2011 but allow me to keep it to myself. Whatever things going on, hope that He'll be kind enough to give and cherish me with more success ahead. 2011, BRING IT ONN!!!! yeahhh!

Have a blissful and tantalizing sizzling 2011 peeps!

Lots of Lurve xoxo

Shifting Out

Out of the blue, I suddenly feeling sad. Just so you know, upon got the job of Net Facilitator early this year, on the fifth month of working, I decided to move out from my cousin's resident to rent a room somewhere at the town. This isn't easy cause I need to explain to them the strong reasons why I am out. Plus, I don't wanna hurt anybody's feeling. Thanks Lord, they understood me. Honestly, it's not related to any personal issues, but I just comfortable to live on my own, doing things I want to and be alone.

Actually, the most factor that made me moved out is, this place got the 3G/HSDPA connection for my Celcom broadband, and it's quite acceptable in any streaming. Even though often it pissed me off, but at least it do justice for me rather than wasting cash in a cybercafe. Talking about internet, my job required me to always confront the internet most of the time. So I guess I just cleared my purpose of moving.

It's the end of 2010 now, and I'm still here. Though there may several  things I can't really accept here; the fights among the married couple, the honks at early morning, the voices of peoples who come to shop, the "KARAOKE STARS" at a pub next block, again, the noises of the next room's television, I feel it's kinda normal thing happens in every neighborhood. Whether we capable to get used of it, or lift and move you butt outta that place.

Besides, the landlord is very kind and tolerate. He never complaining if I couldn't pay the rent right on time. He would gave more times. Few incidents occurred such as I accidentally locked my keys inside the room, the first and last person to call would be him. It happened two times, I admit my careless, but surprisingly, he's the one helped me out too hard. He doesn't care. Very responsible one, huh. And then, there's once my bulb blow out one night, the next day I told him and straight away he came and fixed it! See, even though the rent rate quite a burden, but it's worth living here. It's my personal thoughts never know how the other renter's feel.

It turns to I have to move out from this place so soon due to some 'shifting' purpose and right this moment, I emotionally feel sad cause I begin to feel this place as a place suit to me, like a home to me. Well, won't pay any tears for this but deep inside my heart, I gratefully wanna thanks the landlord for being so kind. Do really hope that I'll get more better place in the future.

p/s : not attaching any pic cause the room quite a disaster right now. ;p

Truly Thankful xx

Christmas Isn't Christmas

You know I've been telling those asking me how's my Christmas going, and I rather replied "so-so",just nice, sort of. In fact, it was. I attended some open houses, sipping alcoholic can drinks, shaking hands and greet the folks, without even noticing, am I truly fun doing all these flows?

Coughing and flu for almost several days never done anything to me instead of being an excuse of avoiding any harmful drinks nor foods. Indeed, now it's getting worst throughout few days away of New Year. Talking about new year, I'm so gonna looking forward to this date cause I got a plan and I'll be screwed up if this isn't happens! A very friend of mine Cynta(guess I mentioned her alot) alerted me to this kinda bash New Year Party that will be held at IceBar, 1Borneo Hypermall, KK, Sabah and few well-known lineups will be there joining and entertaining the party peeps.

Here party mates, dig this in, and start gather your close party companions to obtain the VIP passes with 2 bottles of liquor! Guess this ain't be enough, but at least you can get high to get along the whole night shows!
Lazy to explain, this is it ;

2011 COUNTDOWN BASH

You're so not gonna miss this one! Oppss, talking to the peoples available in KK on this date. Yay!

Woopss again! Ain't I supposed to talk about Christmas? Screw me!

Ok, I knew this song, Christmas Isn't Christmas when I joined the caroling long time ago. The first few lines sound, " Christmas, isn't Christmas, till it happen, in your heart...... " made me think again, isn't any big moment like this supposed to be felt by our heart? Everything's would be fine and fun whenever our heart declares so. So, what wrong with the love-shaped organ inside my body?

I felt guilty to anyone I'd met during Christmas if my appearance turned invisible during the occasions. There's really chaotic thingy messed up in my head nor my heart at this very moment. I will figure solutions to it, then capture the spirit again.

Merry Christmas,

Snowless Christmas

Its few days away from Christmas. In fact, just one day left. I may not the super busiest as the others do, but I'm thrill to celebrate it this year. Not really excited since being adult, everything's seems not fun anymore if our head loaded by too many things.

Last two days, while reading Haruki Murakami's book, I heard a very nice carollers outside my rentplace. Never heard such since the last I joined the caroling decade ago. I used to be a caroller long time ago, never miss any of the practices, forced my friends to get in it to accompany me, and I enjoyed every songs I sang. Woaaah. How I miss that moments.

Just so you know, I missed few Christmases back when I'm still in uni. And factually, not only missing the occasions, but most of my precious time of spending time with the family was vanished just like that. To tell the reasons, new sem registration never been late than the date of 25th. Huh!

This may sounds cliche, but I shopped for two shirts and a bottom for this Christmas. I just don't wanna miss again the fun.

I hope that next year, my Christmas would be somewhere snowy, you know, Europe maybe. God willing. For those celebrated, have a blast Xmas. Enjoy every beat of the fun, forget you sorrows.

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2O1O!!!

Lamb of God xx

Dolce Far Niente

Hello. Come stai? Been few days of no entry, today I felt like to blog with an ocean of gratefulness. It's for God, thanks I still breathing.

I just passed over watching Eat Pray Love few minutes ago. Called me outdated, but I hold hard to my promise that I'm going to do things that I'm dying to want to do. I've been dying to watch this movie upon it was released not so long time ago. Sadly, it turned that I've missed it.

Being fascinating by the story within the 3 places featured, friends that really a 'friend', helping just when we needs them, and every word on the scripts, it's just remarkable. These three strong points should I credited to this Ryan Murphy's piece for made my time watching em' is so worthy!

Well, part of myself now really uber excited to learn Italian language now. What so scary me, I'm not that passionate one when it comes to new language. LMAO. But, just trying, it could be useful someday. Sounds like a plan! Yay.

I bought the dvd from a store that I've been visiting everytime I want to get the RM10 for 3. Consider me a pirate but the quality of the visual, the subtitle, you're not gonna regret it. I wish I'm a rich guy so I can buy the original one but hey, good things not only come from the expensive one. :)

I'm gonna run two other dvds so soon, and till then, end of entry.

Dolce Far Niente xx

Fun VS Faith?

Ok, this may sounds bit offending but hey, I must blog this before departing to the place that I've been always wanted to go since I knew the place was existed! Hurm, this weekend seems so inviting yet challenging at the same time cause its made me in a crossroad despite, I already decided to go for one few months back.

On FAITH, I know I'm a sinner, and I won't let all that sins and bads haunt me all the time. For real, when I'm still a kid, I'm a church kid whereas I won't miss any church events during that old days. But time goes by, I've been apart to residential school and the faith became lil bit neglected. At that time, studies must come first!

So it happens that I saw the event created on facebook about a seminar aka retreat to be held at Holy Trinity Carmel and gosh, it's so opened my heart to be wanting and joining the occasion. With no hesitation, I jotted the date on my calender and today, the day comes to it.

On the other side, which is FUN, two days ago, my sister text me asking for assistance for her appearance and explained that she's competing in a pageant contest. It's so last minute that she had to get the fully available make up artist only, and no time to waste for grabbing any superb dress somewhere in KK. So, dress was chosen from the local boutique saloon only.

I did assisted her, which I drove her to Keningau to get a heels since she don't have a good one, we went to search any alternative dress since the dress she's got was a bit, mum's taste, and even be with her the whole rehearsal at the same day. What a tiring but honestly, I'm happy to lend such help esp for my own sister.

Today, these two things happen altogether and I can't attend both cause the locations are a problem, too far, and also both events require me to engage form 6pm till 12am. What a very tough choices. Well, it's final, I gotta choose and I'm gonna tell the verdict.

THE VERDICT : Georgie Joseph will attending the Retreat of Healing the Faith at Holy Trinity Carmel, starting this 5pm till Sunday(unknown exact finish time). God, I'm carrying bunch of prays for you to listen and I know I made the right decision.

So, dear my lovely sister, MISS MERYL FOSTER, I will pray that you gonna have a great time during Miss Rainforest tonight, you'll be love by the judge, and anything happens, take it as a lesson. No lost, no gain. But I do hope you win!

FAITH

 Lord, I come to you.

FUN

my beautiful beloved sis. 

theme : Rainforest Queen(sempatt ;p)

I'll depart to my destination shortly and I hope that my prays will be answered yet I found what I really want.

Faithfully xx

Where Are You?

Too lame to write, I merely feel lonely to the top-notch noticing that I'm carrying the title 'single' and no point to stare to my cellphone for someone's text to inbox in. I have one before, but it crashed after it's only stand for 4 months. Sadistic but no pain, no gain. Always stick to the principle of 'no matter how hard you like the person, if that's not the ONE, don't ever beg to stay'. Now, enjoy this one :



Don't highlight the singer, I'm not really into JB, but let the song speaks itself.

So, don't make me wait baby, I'll promise I'll love you more than ever. :)

The-Sooo-Loner,

Gadgets!!! Curse My Appetite!

While writing this entry, I'm still making comparison on what I saw and heard yesterday, and what I just witnessed few hours ago. Similarity is, both are choir! But, I'm not sure if I mistaken the real choir concept all this while or not, cause of my knowledge, choir is a group of peoples doing rendition of songs, with the division of voices. Whereupon, today, on the event of World Class Choir performances at UMS Chancellor Hall, I was watching a non-categorical show which the choir doing some sorts of chanting, jumping, hissing, alike theater, and it's merely confusing me of choir concept. On the other side, yesterday, I was captivated by the extraordinary caroling I ever heard while wandering in 1 Borneo. Their voices similar to angelic voices of the carolers I often heard only on movies, tv or outside aka West programs. It's calm, clean yet sounds angelic like you never want to leave and hear more and more from them. Of the two of this 'rivals', the carolers won my heart and I decided to put some shots of them here ;

Enough of the choir things!

I'm thrilled to have things I always wanted and only when the right time(with enough bucks), I could buy them. That's not the point cause it's sound too show-off but the long await I managed to complete was very challenging when I have to be patient, calculate wisely on my financial, to make sure that I won't regret the bills I pay, I'm sure alot of peoples out there surely can't stand such await. I always remind myself that I'm no a minister's son, not even a money maker that can easily buy the things they dying to own. Basically, appetite makes someone may spend money uncontrolled without minding their essential needs. Well, it's just the piece of advice.

Pluck and strums. That's the new resolution I need to accomplish now. So, I bought a not-so-cheap acoustic guitar for that reason. Meet my Skylark!!! :

 hehe...blue still on top of my favourite

As an additional, I bought a new shoes too. Dying for so long, I decided to get a Supra so I can wear it during my performance one day! LOL.

dunno, but i just love this silver

I hope that I will put my 150% on my new lesson so that I will not far away from reaching for my dream. Wish me luck, and hope that I can post my first virtual singing very soon.

Bruno Mars Wannabe

Unease

Everything happens lately still unease the feeling of stumbling down inside me. The 'news' really put me in a sorrow. I may sound fragile and not motivational, but I have lots of stuffs to concern when I knew I lost my source of income.

Workhood isn't really get us into a guaranteed living. In fact, most of the tenses that we carry actually come from our workplace + the assignments. I believe so cause I had experiences on this. The good times always when we're at home.

Well, too many things happened recently, lots of events I've attended, and lots of hangouts I made. To kept myself busy and not fall into thinking about my tough situation right now, I need to get out and do something to reach off that mess!

Currently, I'm not so in mood of blogging, but just so you know, when the time healed me, I'll update you some of the fun times I had undergo recently.

Sorry for the terrible writing and grammar error. Still too bad in English and still improving.

Till then...

Super-moody xx

Crossroad Crossroad

Recently, sleep isn't so manageable as always. Couldn't count for how many wakes I had made once I get to sleep. Causes ; too much to think. The major one, the near-end contract of my job! If now is at the past 6 months ago, I can beat that I'm still browsing the net and replying the comments on Facebook without any worry! Let's face the reality, times aren't pausing. Its even rushing!

People says, and on what I've been experienced previously, instinct always right. In this dilemma, my instinct early told that our contract will be extended. Well, how I can so sure cause till this moment, the upper management haven't release the verdict yet. I would be bliss if they can give us the GOOD news in the verge of November and December. (or, just the BAD one) This would such a justice for us, to make us able to find another job so soon. *sigh*

I'm so gotta make a way ahead to go and pray to Him, cause no matter what, prays count. I believe so, in addition of just the efforts itself.

In fact, if it happens that I need to find a new job, I hope it worth to accept the post, and pay a guarantee to my future onwards! AMEN

the man on the verge :(

When The Cash Runs Out

By guessing the title given, you may already got the idea that I am so broke now. Just now, I went to banked in another cash to my landlord for the monthly rent payment. Living alone, I means renting, may be good at some point but could be trouble you in another way. First, I always forgot that I'm renting a room. So, whenever I get my salary, I never thought about the rent payment on top of my must-pay-list every month.

Times passed by, and I'm still zero whenever it comes to saving! You know the feeling when we're holding some cash, the more we got, the more it will be spend. I won't say that I'm a shopaholic but that's the fact. I had few times planning to save at least 500bucks in bank and ended with nothing. I should be back to the old days when no few things to own, and to pay as well.

In that case, I made some approaches to apply as the solution isn't popup that easy if I still figure nothing. So here is the list ;

1. Pretend that we already have nothing left in our account.

2. When you think about goods, take times to analyze whether it's important/ do we really need it? If it is not, then forgot it!

3. Limit your moves or attending any invitations that will cost you. If it does not require you to take out some cash, consider it as the way to socialize more.

4. Distract yourself from any shopping thoughts by reading, surfing the internet, or exercising.

5. Minimize your spends based on what's left in your wallet. Only do withdrawal when it comes to zero or insufficient.

I may miss some of the points but that's the least I can advised based on what I am doing whenever I broke. Remember that saving is essential coz we never know what the future can do to us. For better or worst, the best we can do is ready.

Let's saving peeps!

The Fragiler-Saver,

Settled Sunday

Ok, and my birthday just passed by. Nothing extraordinary has happens. I had a not-so-fun-to-tale weekend. But at least I've got to settle few things I had on my mind the day I left Tambunan for KK.

As per the early entry, I had mentioned that I'll be performing on 13th for an event called Youth Art Festival. The show wasn't as good as what I'm expected. Well, not try to highlighting that I am a great singer, cause I'm not, at all. To make excuses, obviously, I may pick the wrong song, and lack of practice lead me to that so-forgettable-only performance.

Due to money management, I also limiting my hungers to visit few places during my weekend at KK. It's been November, and I'm so gonna have to do some saving and no more wastage on such crappy things. All this while, I totally driven by self-wants instead of self-needs and money flew just like that. Arggghhh!

To cut it short, on my way home this day, I went to settled my car payment, coincidentally Pizza Hut is just aside the bank, so I bought a take-away Hawaian Chicken pizza for my family. Then, I also decided to drop by to some car accessories and part store to find a car rim cap but disappointed. Coincidentally again, the CIMB bank is just near by the shop, so I went to made a transaction to a friend of mine for the shoes I bought from him. I'm dying to see and wear the shoes cause I've been wanting it so long. Yeah!

Oh did I mentioned that I bought a present for myself on my birthday? Hehe. I went to Times Bookstore that day and directly grabbed the Eat.Pray.Love phenomenal sold novel due to some reviews I've read and recommendations given to me. So, tadaaa. I'm gonna start my reading now. Not so now, I guess it should be tomorrow.

Going to further my nap.

Eat.Pray.Love xx